Seeing Gma

It was such a blessing to get to see grandma. As you can see, she had a feeding tube and lot of other wires and tubes. She couldn't really talk as the tube goes up her nose then down her throat! Here she was trying to smile.

Our time with her was truly precious! When we walked in she blinked a bunch like "say huh". Her mouth was mouthing "oooooh". So, it was so awesome that she was glad to see us.

She delighted in my kids. The tried to lean down so she could hug them. We decided it would be safer for them to hug her and she could snuggle their heads. *tear* She held on to Emily for a while. Then when we were saying good-bye I held Joseph up and he put his head down on her shoulder and she held him for a good while. She had her eyes closed and was snuggling him with her cheek as if taking in these memories. I of course was crying and crying. It was so touching. I don't even know how long I held him like that!

I was so grateful my kids were so good up in the hospital. They were even lovey with other family members. That always makes me nervous because my kids don't know any of them very well and I don't want them to hurt anyone's feelings. Here Joseph let Kelly hold him ;)

Hospital version of YMCA :) The kids did excercises with gma. She enjoyed the entertainment. I think it made it a little more bearable for her. It also allowed my kids to get some energy out ;)

We brought gma up some magazines and other things to cheer her up.

So, we got to go up Monday afternoon and Tuesday morning before we left. One of my favorite memories was from Tuesday. When we first arrived the nurse was getting gma settled in a chair. After the nurse left I told them we can go and say hi to gma. Joseph marched right over there, put his hand on her knee and began to pray for her!!!! It was the most amazing thing *tear*. I think I may have to call him Little Preacher from now on :)

Sigh, it was such a blessing yet so heart wrenching! How do you say good-bye when you don't know if you will see them on this earth again? Ugh, I struggled with this. I wanted to be profound, I wanted to be eloquent, I wanted to be encouraging......turns out, I cried a lot, kissed her hand, sat at her feet and thanked her for her example and for all she has taught me as a wife, a mother and as a woman....sigh......not what I had planned....still doesn't make me satisfied....but maybe that was all she wanted to hear. Then we of course told her how much we love her and are praying for her!

She still has no change to her pneumonia after almost a week of antibiotics. She now has a blood infection, and they have determined that she will never be able to eat or drink anything again...she will always have a feeding tube of one sort or the other. Sigh....I so hate sickness and the whole process of death.

Speaking of which....adorable story. When we were talking about gma's health with the kids Hannah asked why people get sick and sometimes die from it. We told her that there is a time when everyone must die. That our time with that person will be over with the person and God wants to spend time with them. She wasn't satisfied. She said but why does everyone have to die. So, we reminded her about Adam and Eve and the bad choice they made. And because of them sinning, everyone must die. She then said tearfully, "I really love my great gma, but I am REALLY mad at Adam and Eve!!"